Did the Beatles really know what they were talking about when they said that “all you need is love”? Or was it Tina who had it right when she asked “what's love got to do with it”?
He walked in and I felt good. I shook his hand and had a hard time looking in his eyes. All I could think of was getting him away from the office so we could talk more. It was a different feeling. After what seemed like an eternity we went to lunch...never have I felt so comfortable around someone. Well...maybe the one time and we all know how that ended right?
After lunch it was just the 2 of us...laughing, chatting and then it just comes right out...he asked me on a date! Oh...it was turning into a perfect day. Of course I agreed....why not...he was perfect...oh...except he's LDS. Yup, those 3 letters that make me feel like I'm from the wrong side of the tracks. Those 3 letters that make me feel inferior. But there is just something about him...something that excites me! Oh shoot...I forgot...he's moving to Houston as well! I guess it's OK because we know that nothing will happen once he finds out how un-wholesome I am....right?!
Wrong!! It's been 2 days and I've completely fallen for this man! And he's fallen for me! I got the text on Thursday and it's been non-stop since then...once again mirroring a former fling...even with the religion thing. We went out yesterday and I didn't want to leave his side. I felt so comfortable around him. My arms felt comfortable around him. My hands felt comfortable in his hands. My lips felt oh so comfortable touching his lips. Usually I would enjoy lunch and head home, Saturday I couldn't get enough of him. We walked, we talked we laughed and it felt great. Until I would look at him and know that all of our differences would eventually cause us to drift.
I feel like I am his lesson. He said that he's never felt like this about someone, anyone else in his life...am I his lesson like Riad was my lesson? I know that we could never be together. I know that he deserves to have someone he can share his life with the way he wants to and I would never take that from him I just don't know why he has to be LDS. Why can't this be what I want it to be. I prayed for my person and I meet someone so dang cute and funny and smart and perfect and I'm too flawed to be with him. Maybe he's my lesson...maybe it's time for me to learn that I can love. I learned that with Riad but then felt so broken...maybe I'm not broken. Or maybe I am broken and he's my glue...glue that's leavin' on a jet plane to that great state of Texas!!
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